I always have.
I remember getting in this one fight in college with my friend and I wanted to talk about it NOW, fix it NOW, and she's very much the 'give me space so I can think' sort of person and I basically chased her around the apartment crying and screaming, "WHY WONT YOU TALK TO ME" and she just kept running away from me going, "I NEED TO THINK YOU CRAZY BITCH!"
I can't believe we're still friends...
As I am prone to do, I recently acted like a giant ass. And I've acted like an ass before, and it's just not funny this time, or cute, or appropriate, or the makings of a fun person to be around, and even after you say sorry you're kinda just still an ass and the only thing anyone can really do is either cut you out forever, or forgive and forget and hope that you, the person who said you were sorry actually takes the sorry serious this time and makes some changes.
Thank god for therapy is all I can say.
So now is the waiting game, and I've never been terribly good at this part, but I guess seeing as I've yet to follow anyone crying through an apartment sobbingly begging them to forgive me this time we just might be in baby steps territory. Maybe?
So I guess what I'm trying to say is while I'm over here being all emo and reflecting on the person I've slipped into, thinking about what kind of person I want to be, and how to get there (yes therapist lady I am listening when you talk at me!) I'll just leave you with this.
My new favorite song in the whole world.
Something about it just makes me happy.
And I don't know about you, but sometimes you need a little happy in between all the brooding and kicking yourself in the ass, for being such an ass.