WHAT IS IT ABOUT FALL & THE NEED TO CHANGE?

Last week I found out I was having knee surgery, scheduled
said knee surgery (eeek) and made a big life altering decision. ALL IN ONE
WEEK. Oh, and Adam was out of town during most all of this.

Let me back up.


There are about five posts I wrote and never published on
this site, and they all say about the same thing: Why do I feel this urge for something new? Is it because it’s time for
a change, or is this simply fall’s way of yet again reminding me of that school yard need for starting something new?  

We moved to Chicago in May, and until our wedding in July
all thoughts went to finishing our wedding planning. Once it was over though
the reality of living in Chicago began to sink in. When we moved to Olympia,
and next to Alaska, in each location we knew it wasn’t a forever home. These
were simple rest stops, places we would live until we moved to our next location. Each
bringing us closer to the moment when we could finally settle down and be done
living a semi transient lifestyle.

And all of a sudden one day it hit me. We’re done. There’s
no more moving. We’re in Chicago, the place we were always working towards.
There’s no more good-byes and driving across the country towards
the next adventure. We can settle.

As I mulled over this idea I had to finally ask myself what
in the world I wanted. Now that I wasn't just trying to get through the next adventure, what did I want? For my career, for my life, for our lives?

Then it hit me. The last three years working from home for a
company based out of Seattle has been amazing. It has been the most rewarding
job I could have ever asked for, and I’ve learned more about online marketing
and eCommerce than I ever could have imagined. As well, the fact I was able to
take it with me from Olympia to Alaska, then Alaska to Chicago was something that
helped me sleep at night when I wondered where in the world Adam’s job would
take us next. At least I'll still have my job, I'd think.

But as the reality of Chicago as “home” begun to sink in, I
started to finally ask myself what I needed. What was next?

I realized that after three years of working from home full
time, I need to see people. I need to put down roots in Chicago. Meet people and make connections with people who also live here. I need to take a big leap forward in my career and make
roots of my own. Hell, I need to wear pants again! I know everyone thinks it is
so great I get to wear yoga pants all day long, but you know what? I am over
it. I want to wear clothes again. I want to put together outfits and buy new
shoes and dresses and pay attention to fashion trends and use purses and not
just do this to go to the grocery store.

So last week I gave notice to a company I love. I told them
I’d be moving on and it sucked, and I cried, and I drank a lot of wine and
watched movies on Netflix that made me cry more and Adam was gone and that sucked
but I survived. I accepted a new job that will be a challenge and has room to
grow and where I’ll go to an office and talk with people face-to-face. I’ll also get to do
this while wearing pants. 

Last week was horrible and awesome all at the same time, but now I’m ready.

Here we go. 

  • Sarah

    Whoa. Big step, lady! Good luck, I hope it’s awesome, fulfilling, challenging, and the people are awesome.

    Good luck with the knee surgery.

  • http://profile.typepad.com/wehavetwinswordpresscom Wehavetwins.wordpress.com

    Belated congratulations on the new job! Pants and purses will be a fun change, I bet. :) Hope the knee surgery goes (went?) really well too. Sending good recuperating thoughts!