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Week 30 – The day we moved to week 30 I woke up, looked at my Glow Nurture app where it announced we were now in week 30 with 10 weeks till baby, and I had a little panic attack. Suddenly it was very really that I was having a BABY, and I needed to do ALL THE THINGS, and why were we so far BEHIND? I looked over at Adam and was like, “We only have 10 weeks left. We need to update our will, we need to get a pediatrician, we need diapers, sheets for the crib and bassinet, we don’t have a changing pad! WE ARE SO BEHIND!” Every day this week I have played a little game with myself of, if baby came today, how fucked would we be? The answer is always, VERY.
I don’t know what it is about ten weeks till baby that suddenly hit me. Maybe it’s because the shower is over, the thing I kept looking forward to as this big thing before baby, and now all that’s left is, well, baby! I think the thing that scares me the most is there is still a lot of essentials we have to check off to make our home habitable for a newborn, basic things like I don’t know, DIAPERS. Or sheets for her bassinet and crib. Or something to change her on. I know we’ll get them (because I’m OCD and armed with an Amazon Prime membership), and I know all will be fine, but the ticking clock really hit me this week.
My goal right now is to lay all the needs out in order of importance, and just start checking things off one at a time. Shower thank you cards filled out, just need stamps. Shower gifts put away. Adam – contact the lawyer to start updating the will. Me – call the pediatrician our neighbors recommended. I’ve done a deep purge of the baby registry to take it from “wishlist” to “need to buy” list, and I’ll just start checking items off one by one till we’re in a place where we can keep a baby alive. Before I know it there will be our first baby care classes, hospital tours coming up here in a hot second, we’ll reach the point of needing the car seat installed, and each week we progress we’re closer and closer to meeting this tiny lady. It’s go time people.
Symptom land this week was all about hip pain. During the day I feel pretty great. But all of a sudden my left hip has started revolting while I sleep. Even on my tempurpedic mattress – literally the world’s most comfortable mattress that exists – after about two hours of sleep I’ll wake to aching in my left hip. No matter if I sleep on my right hip, or my left, my left will ache. Ache to the point of waking me. Aching enough to make it very hard to fall back asleep between my every two hour pee breaks. I find myself sometimes in the middle of the night laying flat on my back, feeling the sweet relief of pain free for a few brief moments, before sadly turning to my side to allow the pain to return. The hardest part is there isn’t much I can do. I have to sleep on my side, I am sleeping on the best mattress possible, and my body is simply loosening my ligaments in prep for having a baby, and hip pain while I sleep is simply a side affect. I just keep telling myself, I’m so close. You can do this. This particular pain will go away eventually. Sure, having a baby is going to bring with it a WHOLE different collection of pain and lack of sleep, but for now I’m just getting through this new development and trying to keep my eye on the prize.
Otherwise it’s all about killer acne, baby hiccups (the world’s sweetest feeling in the absolute world), slowly mounting fatigue, and kicks, kicks kicks. The other night as I lay there in the middle of the night after another bathroom break she kicked me in the pelvis with such force I was sure she broke her foot. It shot the weirdest feeling down my leg too and actually hurt! And then, because she loves me, she did it four more times. When she’s not making contact with bone I love how I’m getting to the point where I can feel my belly and locate little bits of her pushing against me. Maybe it’s a foot, or a hand or an elbow, but I can push softly and feel as she pulls away, or pushes back, this tiny person in there being like, Ugggg, stop bugging me Mom! I constantly have my hand on my belly these days, feeling for kicks, loving each movement as an indication that she’s in there happy and healthy, fattening up before her big arrival.
I can’t believe it’s getting so close. Finally getting so real. We’re having a baby.